I dun know whats going on in my head. Sometimes it just gets so filled with questions i could just go mad... but now im so rational that i cant lose my senses. i think too much. i think n think n never do anything. i know this sounds like something a wuss says.. but im quite sure im not a wuss coz im holding back not coz im afraid but coz it seems to be what God wants of me. u may ask things like.. how the heck u know God wants u to wait? well i cant really tell u coz its like a feeling and really just from stuff i come across during quiet time. So if im to wait, does that mean my questions need to wait to be answered too?
how did we manage to hook up again without actually arranging anything.. so wads it mean
wads the piece of metal doing on u... so wads it mean
how come u seem to be so inconsistent? what happened to before all the nonsense in our lives came about? so wads it mean?
sometimes i feel like im pushing it and defying what God wants of me.. sometimes i feel like im just being retarded... y bother asking if u wun listen to a no. but the thing is.. i dun even have a yes, no or wait. ok maybe a wait since im not getting any...
BUT WHAT THE HECK
take things as they come. if shes the one for me she ll be there. if not i might prolly just give up and decide that im one of those ppl thats not meant for these.
So whats it gonna be?
im fine btw. dun bother looking out for sad weeping emo me coz i dun do that kind of thing. =)